Okay, so, this post is going to be about the my lady troubles, if you catch my drift. You know, feminine things. Downstairs. If you don't want to hear about that, don't click through. It's okay, I won't be offended. But I want to talk about it here in case there is anyone out there with a similar situation going on who wants to talk about it.
Let's start at the beginning. I got my period for the first time when I turned twelve. I started to have terrible cramps a year or so later. Then, as time went on, I had very irregular periods. Mostly, I would be fine for the first few days of my cycle. Then I would start to menstruate around day seven. That would go on for about a week and a half. I'd be clear for about a week again, and then the whole process would start over again. Sucks, right? But at least I didn't have cramps. Occasionally, maybe four times a year, I would have a regular cycle, complete with cramps. Eventually I went to the doctor about this. They didn't do any tests or anything, but they said the problem was probably that I wasn't ovulating most of the time. So when the time came in my cycle where a normal person would ovulate, I would just menstruate instead. They put me on Ortho Tri-Cyclen and it evened everything out. I started menstruating like a normal person.
Throughout all of this I was largely unemployed, so I only had to pay for all of these things on a sliding scale. My OTC was $15 a pack. When I got a job with health insurance, I had to pay full price, which sucked. My insurance did not pay anything towards OTC, since it wasn't on their prescription list, so the doctor put me on some generic birth control. It did not work. Not only did it make me moody and impossible to be around, but it also did not help my problem at all. Bummer. After a year of this, we switched insurance at work. The new insurance did not pay the whole amount, but at least it covered OTC a little bit. So I switched back and only paid $60 per pack. Unpleasant, but worth it.
January of last year, my prescription ran and I went two months without birth control. When I got back on, it didn't work nearly as well. I still bled mid-cycle, but much lighter and only for a few days. Around October, my prescription ran out again and I went without for a month. When I got back on it again, it did nothing. I was back to the same cycle I had started with and I wasn't very happy about it. So I stopped taking them. Why pay $60 a month for a pack of pills that doesn't do anything? I haven't been on birth control for a month and I had a picture-perfect cycle. In fact, I am having terrible cramps as I type, which hasn't happened in years!
So now I don't know what to do. I think I'm going to try a few months without the pills and see what happens. Maybe this was jsut a fluke and next month will be back to the same terrible cycle with which I began. But what if it doesn't? If I can have a regular cycle on my own, should I go back to the pill? What if it makes my cycle irregular again? What if I can't have a regular cycle with the pill or without it? What if I have to spend the rest of my life with terrible irregular periods?
My mum thinks I should try another doctor. A doctor that will find out conclusively what the problem is and try to treat it. She thinks maybe I should try other brands and see if any of those are better.
Chris thinks I should get something like a NovaSure procedure and fix this once and for all, if it really bothers me that much. But I don't know at this point if I am ready to give up the option of ever having children, even though I'm not sure that I ever want to have them.
Which brings up a whole other side of this whole problem - am I even able to have children now? I mean, like I said, I'm still not sure where I stand on the idea of having kids. Part of me thinks it would be a lot of fun, but the other part of me thinks it would be a terrible idea. That's a subject best left for another post. But the fact remains that I don't even know if it is a possibility.
It's all very distressing and I really don't know what to do.