Monday, June 27, 2011

MIA

So I know it is bad blogging etiquette to make a post explaining and apologizing for blog laziness, but I;m going to do it anyway.  I just wanted to make sure you know that it isn't because of infinite sadness the way it was last summer.  Lately I haven't had time to post very often because I have been too busy enjoying myself.  Crazy, I know.

I've been having a lot of fun and I've been very happy.  I don't know how long it will last, but I intend to take full advantage of it while it does.  A lot of this has to do with my newly revised outlook on life.  I started developing this new outlook back when I made my summer goals list.  I realized that I would have to loosen up a little if I wanted to fulfill and enjoy all of the things on my list.  So I made a concerted effort to stop and enjoy things while they were happening rather than planning and expecting and worrying.  More importantly, I realized that I could have a good time on weekdays.  I know this sounds dumb, but it is a big deal to me.  You see, I've been very strict about going to bed as close to 11:00 PM as possible.  This meant stopping what I was doing, no matter how much fun I was having, around 10:30 to give myself enough of a buffer.  So I spent most of my night watching the clock to make sure that I would be in bed "on time".  This constant clock-watching would make me remember how nice it was to stay up late when I was young and didn't have to worry about getting up early for work.  I would then spend the rest of my time remembering that I had to get up and go to work the next morning.  This all combined to be a huge downer and I would no longer be having a good time.

Recently, though, it was as though a switch was flipped.  I am an adult.  I don't have to go to bed until I want to go to bed.  Will I be tired the next day if I stay up late?  Yes, probably.  But who cares?  As long as I can still wake up and go to work the next morning, what does it matter if I yawn a little more than usual?  Also, back in the day when I didn't work?  I didn't really do anything during the day anyway.  I was just bored and broke.  So what's there to miss about a time when I was poor and sitting around the house all day when now I have money and can do whatever I want whenever I want (within reason)?  It seems kinda silly to me.

Now I am not saying that I should go out partying til 3:00 AM every night.  But if I am having a good time watching a movie or creating art or hanging out on a weekday and it gets a little late?  Who cares!  Have a good time, me.  Life is flying by at an alarming rate - why waste it?

...that being said, I'll try to update my blog more often.  But only if I feel like it.

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