As I mentioned in my One Year post, the song I Will Wait by Mumford & Sons holds a special place in my heart. Both Morgaine and Mutz waited to leave this earth until we could be there to see them off. In honor of this, I decided to make a word art painting to hang above the Pet Memorial Shelf we intend to have when we redecorate the living room.
I started by painting a canvas with a blue wash to give the background some texture. When that dried, I printed out the lyrics in a font I liked and used my projector to trace them onto the canvas.
It took a little work to get it straight (I actually had to lock the kittens in Chris's office because they kept knocking my easel over), but I got there eventually.
I then used black paint to fill in the pencil lines.
To give it a little visual interest, I decided to paint the word "gold" with gold paint and gold glitter.
And that was pretty much it. This project was a lot easier than I thought it would be (except for the whole kitten/easel thing), which doesn't happen very often. I'm super pleased with the final result and can't wait to hang it up.
Today it has been one year since I lost Morgaine. You can read the full story of her life and the loss of her in posts from last September.
I took a vacation day from work yesterday to commemorate this somber anniversary. My initial idea was to mostly mope about, observing different sad and terrible times (the time we took her to the vet, the time of her death, etc). Kylie, in her infinite wisdom, voiced the concern that moping about was probably not the best thing for my mental state. She suggested that we instead do something to celebrate Morgaine's life rather than dwell on her death. I decided that maybe a combination of the two would be best. We'd mourn her in the morning and then take some donations to the Animal Rescue League.
So this morning, I drove over to my parents' house to pick up Kylie so that we could mourn together at my house. I Will Wait, a song I have long associated with first Morgaine and then also Mutz, was on the radio as I was driving and I got rather emotional. When I parked the car, I ran up over the curb in spectacular fashion. I didn't realize until I tried to drive back to my house with Kylie that I had blown out my tire.
My sister proved herself once again to be quite the asset in an emergency situation. She pretty much single-handedly put on my spare tire. Chris met us at the tire shop nearby, and they told us my car would be ready around 3:00 or so. Bummer. So we went out to breakfast and then Chris dropped us off at my parents' house to wait for my dad to come home. When he did, we went to the store and bought all sorts of supplies to donate to the ARL.
When my car was finally ready, a bit later than estimated at 4:00, we drove over to the ARL to drop off our haul. We had originally intended to volunteer to socialize the cats, but we didn't have time since it had gotten so late. So we just dropped off our donations, looked at the cats, and then went home.
This day did not go at all the way I had planned. But I'm actually pretty glad it turned out the way it did. All the things going wrong were enough of a distraction that I didn't really have much time to mope at all. And though I feel a little guilty for not weeping and tearing at my clothes in proper mourning fashion, I realize that it could have been a major setback for me. And it doesn't mean I love Morgaine any less, it just means I'm in a stable enough mental place to be able to miss her without completely shutting down. And that's a good thing.
Over the last year, I have been posting a photo of Morgaine on Instagram on the 24th of every month. When she died last August, I was in the middle of a 30 day series of cat photos. I have finished the 30 days with twelve photos of Morgaine from September 2012 - August 2013. This collage features each photo - you can go to my Instagram account to see the full sized versions.
I've been listening to Welcome To Night Vale because it is the best thing ever. Each episode features a song, and about half of them are amazing. This is one of those amazing ones. Her voice is just so... I don't even know. It makes my throat clench up like I want to cry for no apparent reason. Love it.
I am so in love with this song. The lyrics are pretty much the best and most perfect thing ever.
I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands
I hope I get the chance to travel the world
But I don't have any plans
Wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life's a game made for everyone
And love is the prize
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost